GizzmoAsus' Blog

Just found this on my travels around t’internet, it got me thinking about a few aspects that I really do need to stand back and take a look at :S

Well it would appear that my rain as the only member of my family who doesn’t need glasses has now come to an end. Went to the opticians yesterday to get my eyes tested and was told that I had the reading capability of someone with 20/20 vision.
Great I thought no need for glasses, but I was wrong. Apparently I can read at the same level as someone with 20/20 vision but it causes extra stress on my eyes :(
So here it is, a picture of me with the glasses:

Oh well I thought it was about time I posted something on here. I seem to keep forgetting about this place lol.

Have recently found a foreign artist I can actually listen to without knowing the words lol. She is a french artist called Alizee, and before you start no it isn’t because of that arse The music she produces is actually pretty good. There are quite a few music videos on YouTube and google video if you want to check her out (think her last tour dvd is on there somewhere). Well that just shows my random taste in music lol.

Anyway regarding xmas, it was again another very quiet year and I hate to say it but my sister is really starting to wind me up. She is treating my dad’s house more like a doss house than an actual home, and as a result I fear that dad may be getting more and more worn out by the hassel every day The question what can I say that would make any difference? Nothing thats what, no matter what  say she will continue doing what ever she wants to. Meh she will learn eventually.

New year was pretty good, don’t remember the end of it but that was down to a shed load of beer with friends and family down at the local. Gotta love those late nights. IIRC it was past 3am when we left the pub and conituned the party back at ours lol.

Well I am now back in Loughborough with the intention of getting some work done. I will admit its not that easy to get in the mood to revise and I know i really should do but will start again on Monday. I did quite a bit over xmas so deserve a couple of days rest, well thats my theory anyway (and I don’t hear anyone disagreeing with me).

Oh well that will do for now and for once it aint a full post on just a rant lol.

Well for some reason today I am incredibly pi$$ed off, at what I hear you cry, well to bhe honest I don’t really know. Could it be a combination of things or could it be one thing in particular … I just do not know.

Some of the things are starting to get to me though can be sumed up in a few questions:

Why do I have to go shopping every single time something needs to be bought for the house.
Why do I not sleep at night?
Why do I not get up when my alarm goes off?
Why do I get the feeling I am going to fuck up my degree just like everythign else I have done in life up to now?
Why am I single? (I know … let the comments begin)
Why do people insist on trying to drag the society down?
Why is the society going to pieces?
What can I do to stop the above? (atm nothing)

Meh anyway those are just a few of the questions that I can thing of at the moment. If anyone feels like they have an answer to the above then feel free to post. (that is if there is anyone other than Phill who has found it yet lol)

Do I feel better now I have blogged this lot? The answer to that question is “NO I do not”

Oh well shit happens and maybe I should stop letting things get to me.

Ok, a couple of weeks back me and waffle decided it would be a good idea to arrange an evening out in Rock City, Nottingham. So last night we went, the night consisted of a meal at the Hard Rock Cafe which was awesome followed by a trip over to Rock City. Now this is where most of the “fun” took place.

With all of the drinks priced at £1.50 I decided to go onto the Newcastle Brown Ales (that was the first mistake) I then apparently went and supped quite a large volume of said drink then proceeded to act like a twat. Most of this I do not remember but am being reminded of little bits from the lads.

Basically I just want to aplolgies to Waffle, Pod, Beckie, Comm and Craig, and anyone else who was either offended / upset / annoyed etc etc by my behaviour. Also I would like to thank waffle for running us all there but I still think we should have arranged a taxi then you could have had a few more bevies than you did

Again my apologies,
GizzmoAsus

Well its 06:20am and I am still awake. Think I may have dossed off for an hour or so but now am wide awake. I just can’t seem to clear my head of random thoughts about this that and the other. It will sort itself out eventually, it always does, just means I will be a little tired for the next week or so.

Start back at uni on Monday and to be honest I can’t wait to get back. Over the easter holiday I have taken things a little bit too easily which means I will need to pull things back and get some work done for this final semester before the exams in June.

On the up side there seems to be quite a bit of interest in my custom dials which is always good. Hopefully someone will get a copy and offer me a decent job when I come out of Uni (sounds like a prison sentance lol). Hopefully then I can sort out everything else in my life. Well you never know where it will lead.

Oh well lets go and see about getting more sleep. Night Night all

I have recently come to the conclusion that my work at the local spar was pointless and have resigned. The reason for this is simple, my ex-boss was messing me about. In that he would give me nothing for a week then offer me 4 hours here, 4 hours there. POINTLESS!!!

Anyway enough of that rant, it does however mean I am in the search for a new job, have applied for 3 data entry jobs in and around lufbra so will wait and see if anything happens with those.

On the plus side it means I am now back in Blackburn enjoying some quality time on the golf course Hopefully I can improve my overall game and show a couple of people a couple of things lol.

Not much else to say so shall sign off for now

Hi guys,
I realise this will be my first post on a blog and what a post it will be

Tuesday was the two year anniversary of my mum’s death, it appears that my housemates don’t know about this. Should I tell them or should I just carry on keeping myself to myself???

Over the past few days I have come to realise that my mum has gone and will never be returning. After two years this fact has only just hit me and I’m not 100% sure what to do. Do I just go on like nothing has happened or do I let it affect me??? ARRRRRRGGH I hate feeling like this, depressed, wanting to cry out but not wanting to upset anyone else.

Yesterday we went over to Marshland St James, this is where we scattered my mum’s ashes on my nan’s grave. I just stood there like a lemon whilst my dad put the flowers on the grave. I feel I have to be strong to help my dad get though this but there isn’t really anyone there for me to confide in. If I confide in my dad it will just upset him (am avoiding this), this is also the same with my sister. I keep reading a poem that my cousin wrote for the funeral:

Deep in Our Hearts

Happy little memories
Go flitting through our minds,
And in all our thoughts and memories
We also seem to find,
The picture of your face Josie
The memry of your touch,
And all the other little things
We came to love so much.
You cannot go beyond our thoughts
Or leave our love behind,
Because we keep you in our hearts
And forever in our minds.
And although we may not have always told you
We know you know its true,
That we will always find happiness
In all our thoughts of you.

Rest peacefully Josie

Not exactly sure what else to put now so will leave it for a while and might just go for a random drive as that always seems to clear my mind, failing that I will just go for a wander to the shop. Not sure if anyone will eer find this but I had to write the way I felt down somewhere and this seemed the logical place to do it