Archive for April, 2006

Yay the damned insomnia is back

by on Apr.22, 2006, under Personal

Well its 06:20am and I am still awake. Think I may have dossed off for an hour or so but now am wide awake. I just can’t seem to clear my head of random thoughts about this that and the other. It will sort itself out eventually, it always does, just means I will be a little tired for the next week or so.

Start back at uni on Monday and to be honest I can’t wait to get back. Over the easter holiday I have taken things a little bit too easily which means I will need to pull things back and get some work done for this final semester before the exams in June.

On the up side there seems to be quite a bit of interest in my custom dials which is always good. Hopefully someone will get a copy and offer me a decent job when I come out of Uni (sounds like a prison sentance lol). Hopefully then I can sort out everything else in my life. Well you never know where it will lead.

Oh well lets go and see about getting more sleep. Night Night all 😉

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Things could be on the up ;)

by on Apr.10, 2006, under Personal

I have recently come to the conclusion that my work at the local spar was pointless and have resigned. The reason for this is simple, my ex-boss was messing me about. In that he would give me nothing for a week then offer me 4 hours here, 4 hours there. POINTLESS!!!

Anyway enough of that rant, it does however mean I am in the search for a new job, have applied for 3 data entry jobs in and around lufbra so will wait and see if anything happens with those.

On the plus side it means I am now back in Blackburn enjoying some quality time on the golf course 😉 Hopefully I can improve my overall game and show a couple of people a couple of things lol.

Not much else to say so shall sign off for now 😉

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Real Downer

by on Apr.05, 2006, under Personal

Hi guys,
I realise this will be my first post on a blog and what a post it will be :(

Tuesday was the two year anniversary of my mum’s death, it appears that my housemates don’t know about this. Should I tell them or should I just carry on keeping myself to myself???

Over the past few days I have come to realise that my mum has gone and will never be returning. After two years this fact has only just hit me and I’m not 100% sure what to do. Do I just go on like nothing has happened or do I let it affect me??? ARRRRRRGGH I hate feeling like this, depressed, wanting to cry out but not wanting to upset anyone else.

Yesterday we went over to Marshland St James, this is where we scattered my mum’s ashes on my nan’s grave. I just stood there like a lemon whilst my dad put the flowers on the grave. I feel I have to be strong to help my dad get though this but there isn’t really anyone there for me to confide in. If I confide in my dad it will just upset him (am avoiding this), this is also the same with my sister. I keep reading a poem that my cousin wrote for the funeral:

Deep in Our Hearts

Happy little memories
Go flitting through our minds,
And in all our thoughts and memories
We also seem to find,
The picture of your face Josie
The memry of your touch,
And all the other little things
We came to love so much.
You cannot go beyond our thoughts
Or leave our love behind,
Because we keep you in our hearts
And forever in our minds.
And although we may not have always told you
We know you know its true,
That we will always find happiness
In all our thoughts of you.

Rest peacefully Josie

Not exactly sure what else to put now so will leave it for a while and might just go for a random drive as that always seems to clear my mind, failing that I will just go for a wander to the shop. Not sure if anyone will eer find this but I had to write the way I felt down somewhere and this seemed the logical place to do it

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